I’m you from six months ago. No, trust me. I’m you. If you don’t believe me, well…I don’t guess I have a way to actually prove it to you, so you’ll just have to trust me on this one. (Oh! I’m humming “A Certain Shade of Green” by Incubus at this very moment.)
Trust. Huh. Such a little word. We’ll start there. You’ve never much cared for that word as it applies to yourself. I still have a hard time with it. I don’t much trust my own judgement, “instincts,” decisions, thoughts, ideas, etc. It’s a funny thing, though. We’ve never made many terrible decisions. We’ve learned from every seemingly questionable decision and situation. We improved things and moved on. It’s not that difficult to trust. You’ve just got to put that faith where you know it’ll be okay. Because, guess what? It’s always okay. You know what I mean.
So, just trust yourself and your thoughts, decisions, and ideas. Trust those who love you. They’ve got your back.
Trust yourself enough to know that you can and will break those bad habits. That procrastination – we’ve come a long way on this one. Drinking too much coffee – Hey! I’m working on finding a balance with this one; I know it’s possible. Unnecessary spending of the monies – this is new, but a budget will help tremendously – so stick to it! Paying off debt – not too shabby; we’re almost there! Saving money – we just opened an Big Girl savings account and have save $200 so far!
Don’t worry about school. It seems difficult because it is. It seems time consuming because it is. It seems stressful because, well, there’s a lot to do, but you can do it. You always do. It seems like it is taking forever, but it’s not. You’ve been in school continuously since you were about 5 years old. Each diploma and degree has seemed like a lifetime. Two years is nothing. You can do it.
Don’t measure your success in any realm of your life based on other people’s definitely questionable standards for themselves or their perceived standards for you. It’s not worth it, and if they care about you at all, they’ll know not to hold you to such things anyway. Mostly because you’re SuperTeala. You’ve got this.
Things will happen. Life will go on. It always does. Until it doesn’t. But it will still go on after that too.
See? You can do it! You can do anything. You’re THE SuperTeala. Do you have an official cape yet? I’m working on that right now. (Note to self: get Sittle Lister to make a cape.)
Also, stop thinking so far into the future. Spend more time living in the present. (Mostly because we’re all mad here – the past-present and the present-present.) It’s quite enjoyable.
All my love,